you said move on (where do i go)

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date: Thursday, December 29, 2005
time:3:09 PM

Guilt is wat i experience whenever i don see him..

Guilt is something tt makes me weaker..

Insanity makes a person look at life in a different view..

Curiousity is common for ever human being on earth..

Disappointment is what he feels everytime he's near me..

Love is all of the above for me..

I feel guilty whenever i don spent time wif him during the holidays..

It makes me feel weak when i am not beside him..

It makes me insane when people talk abt us and see a different part of me..

I always feel curious for his actions, why ME?

I knw he is disappointed wif me, for my actions and my words..

I knw why i feel this way..

I knw why he thinks tt way..

It is a simple explanation for our thoughts and actions..

Maybe we are jus insane, but..

In my point of view,

We are jus in LOVE! :)

People who are struck wif the love spell are jus insane people..

We do weird things,

Say things we neve thought we would say..

Do things tt makes us feel protected..

Express our feelings in different ways we can think of..

Look at things in a positive attitude..

Things jus looks beautiful when u are struck wif LOVE..

The word L.O.V.E is a powerful thing in my life..

Is it the most powerful thing to u? :)

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date: Tuesday, December 27, 2005
time:5:09 PM

Yesterday we (kasmi,shima and my family) went to diana's hse for her christmas party..
It was a fun party but then not much of our fwens were there..
My old fren Joshuel was there too and he brought back this malay fren of his..
We ate diana's food which was not cooked by her nor her mother but it was cooked by her fren from Long John Silvers..
It was not bad even though i thought it will be terrible.. :)

Today is a really boring day..
Haven realli called him yet, mayb later on la..
I WAN TO GO OUT!!
I WAN TO GO TOWN!! :(

See you guys when skool re-opens next week okiie.. :)

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date: Wednesday, December 21, 2005
time:4:20 PM

*HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING! :)*

Aisyah! Aisyah! Aisyah!.. Everything in this house has to be done by me and still they say i am the laziest person in this house.. I neve get a "thank you or thanks" after wat i have done for them.. Some of u must have known me as this irritating gal tt can neve stop smilin'.. Well i guess u saw the other part of me.. Which one of my characteristics is the true and pure Aisyah?.. Tt is a hard question for me because even i don knw.. Mayb in my point of view, I am happy going, sometimes too positive, crazy, irritating, too nice to ppl, funny (not sure), outgoing, adventures, sporty and etc.. But wat do u think? Even i don have a clue? Why don u help me?.. Tell me wat kind of person am i?..

Actualli u knw why i ask u this STUPID question?.. Because i have nothing to do and i have no idea wat to update my blog wif.. haha!.. I knw i am lame but at least i update my blog rite! :)

Oh ya! I almost forgot!.. Yesterday, my whole New Zealand team was on the front page of Straits Times.. There was an article abt my school's trip to New Zealand.. But I was not interveiwed!!! :( How can they NOT interview me? But anyway, the article was published and i am happy to be able to share wif the whole of school abt my trip to NEW ZEALAND! :)

As for my darling who is having a trail abt Gombak (i think) now.. Happy Belated Birthday Again!.. I owe u 15 punches! Muahahahahaha!! :) EVIL!!! Finally he has turned 15.. I am goin to turn 16 in 2 months and now then he turns 15!! So slow!!.. haha!.. Don tell him tt i wrote tt okiie.. He will KILL me!! haha!.. But no worries, my love for him will neve change! ( i hope he thinks the same way too)

To my Best Friends, I realli miss u guys and i cant wait to see u guys when skool re-opens.. I have alot to tell u and i knw u guys have alot to tell me too.. I cant wait to start a new chapter on life wif u guys.. Next year will be so fun, i jus have this gut feeling.. See yea soon! :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!

HO! HO! HO! :)

title: Can i LOVE him? :)
date: Saturday, December 17, 2005
time:2:28 PM

Loving him was never a mistake to me but making him wait was the biggest mistake ever.
He neve gets angry wif the things i say nor wif the things i do.
I would have never seen tis part of him if we had'nt been together.
He knws when to say sweet things and he knws when to stop.
His nonsence mayb very irritating at times but tt is the way i like him.
I knw i have been a very careless gal and irriatting at times but he is able to tolerate wif me.
I realli appreciate him being so supportive and being able to spent his spare time wif me on the phone.

We don go out so often and this mayb the weird's relationship ever on earth but the love for him makes it the best thing on earth. The thing tt realli scares me is something i fear for so long and i hope it never comes true! Keeping relationship true and keeping it away from my family is hard but i hope it will be kept a secret for as long as possible... His birthday is coming and even tt i cant be wif him.. With skool and family, how can i escape tt trap! Always wanted to go out wif him but tt seems to be a dream tt is drifting away.. How can i help tis relationship by myself? He is trying his best to hold on tight to his love but the people around us are forcing me away from him.. But as long as we are surrounded by fwens and each other, our love will never run out.. The world will still evolve around us and we will still love each other like before.. If we are caught in a sticky situation then we can solve it togather..

No matter wat happens, i will still be there.. I may not express my feelings now but deep down u should knw tt i love u wif all my heart.. I am bad at expressing my feelings and u knw tt.. I will support u wif watever u do.. I am ur biggest supporter and i will always be.. Couples do quarrel and if they don means the relationship is not working out.. We do fight over small things and i knw u remember ever single quarrel we had on the phone.. Like when u always bully me on the phone.. Tis small quarrells make our relationship stronger! And as time goes by, we will look back at all our small quarrels and laugh about it! Our relationship will grow every single day and nothing can stop it! I LOVE YOU! :)

our love will continue till the end of time..