you said move on (where do i go)

title: IT IS OVER, DIANA!!!!!!
date: Sunday, September 30, 2007
time:4:30 PM

THAT IS IT PEOPLE!

IT IS OVER!

I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF IT!

I'M NOT A DOLL TO BE THROWN AROUND!

NOT A PIECE OF CRAP THAT WILL TAKE IN ALL YOUR CRAP!

IT IS OVER!

I MADE UP MY MIND!

OK DIANA!

AHTANK ASK ME WHY I DONT TALK TO YOU ABOUT THIS.

BUT!

WHY MUST I!

I DID EVERYTHING TO SAVE IT BUT THE OTHER PARTY WAS UNWILLING!

I DONT CARE ANYMORE!

YOU DONT HAVE TO EXPLAIN ANYMORE!

I KNOW THAT YOU DONT OWE ANYONE AN EXPLANATION!

I GET IT!

I DONT NEED YOUR LAME, STUPID EXPLANATION ANYMORE!

YOU CAN CALL ME A B*@#%!

I DON CARE!

CALL ME A BACKSTABBER!

I DONT CARE!

CALL ME A S***!

I DON CARE!

ALL THAT I KNOW IS THAT I WILL NOT DO THE SAME THINGS, YOU DO TO ME, TO THE REST OF THE GIRLS!

OK!

YOU NEED HELP!

I HAVE NEVER KNOWN SOMEONE WHO LEAVES THEIR FRIENDS THERE!

AND TELLS THEM THAT SHE NEEDS TIME!

TIME FOR WHAT!!!!

TIME TO THINK?

TIME TO HIDE?

TIME TO QUIT?

PLEASE LA!

DONT TALK LIKE YOUR A GODDESS IN YOUR BLOG!

CAUSE YOUR NOT!

NOBODY IS!

I HAVE HAD IT!

MARISSA AND YOU ARE ABOUT THE SAME!

OH SORRY!

THE TWO OF YOU ARE THE SAME!

LEAVE THEIR FRIENDS BEHIND!

SORRY HOR!

YOU HAVE MESSED WITH THE WRONG GIRL!

ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO THINK THAT I'M DOING A WRONG THING NOW!

I DON CARE!

IF DIANA CAN DO IT THEN SO CAN I!

I HAVE A HIGH PATIENCE LEVEL BUT SOMETHING WENT OVER-LIMIT!

WHATEVER YOU DO NOW.

I DONT CARE!

YOU AND AHTANK CAN BE FRIENDS.

I DON CARE!

YOU GO BACK WITH MICK!

I DONT CARE!

YOU WANT TO QUIT STUDYING!

I DON CARE!

IT IS ALL YOURS NOW!

YOU WANT TO BE SAD ABOUT THE THINGS I WROTE!

PLEASE LA!

GROW UP!

DO SOMETHING!

BUT I GUESS DIANA NEEDS MORE TIME!

WHATEVER!!!!!!!

I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF CARING FOR YOU!

AND I DONT GAIN ANYTHING!

RIGHT NOW...

I DONT GAIN ANYTHING FROM THIS.

ALL I LOSE IS A BEST FRIEND!

BUT AS FOR YOU, DIANA.

YOU LOSE A GOOD PATIENCE FRIEND!

AND...

GAIN A "NEW" LIFE THAT YOU ALWAYS WANTED!

HOPE YOUR HAPPY NOW!

ONE LAST THING FROM ME TO YOU!

LEAVE US ALL ALONE OK.

SHAHIRAH HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS BREAKUP OF OUR FRIENDSHIP!

SHE WAS HELPING!

BUT YOU DONT SEEM TO SEE THE GOOD SIDE OF PEOPLE DO YOU?!!!

GOODBYE DIANA!

"THANKS" FOR YOUR TIME!

GO FIND SOMEONE WHO YOU THINK IS YOUR BESTFRIEND?!!!

"HAVE FUN"!!!!!

title: PART 2
date: Friday, September 28, 2007
time:9:29 PM

IM TIRED OF FIGHTING!!!!!

You say that you have apologised to us but i don remember. You say you don't owe anyone an explanation but what about your friends? The people who have been there for you when you were really sad. The people who celebrated your birthday. The people who you loved taking photos with. You tell me, diana? I'm asking you as a friend now. I found out that you were upset about the last post, but I was really pissed. You skip school just because you dont want to face me. You gave up even before trying. That is not the diana that I knew. Now you tell me. I really want to know. Tell me diana? I hate to say it, but we are not the best friends we use to be. ok ok. Im telling you now, listen ok. Come back to school and do your o's. Dont tell me that you dont want to study anymore or you want to go ite. so now i have a test for you.

if you think this friendship is important to you, do something?

now is not the time to be shy.

you left us behind and we still had the time to come and talk to you. THAT IS WHAT BEST FRIENDS DO.

So prove to me&us?

If i don hear from you after this post.

Then i know how you feel after 14 years of friendship.

mayb your just need a push to start things off.

I doing that.

So start thinking.

We will be waiting. :p

title: We "were" BBF!
date: Wednesday, September 26, 2007
time:5:44 PM

DEE,

There has been so many things that has happened this week. I don really know how to start. I know you have been going thru' a tough time but you are not doing anything. I don't understand how you can change in a few weeks, into a girl that I even recognise. I try to tell myself that life's has its ups and downs, so probably you are going thru' that. But then I got to know something that came out from your mouth. You don't even care about us anymore. You think that, all that we are doing is just to make your life miserable but you are WRONG! A good friend would confront the others and tell her the problems.

We have been BEST FRIENDS for 14 years. 14 YEARS??? Now you just want to let go of me. I was there when you were sad, scared and happy. But you still decide to leave me. I hate the fact that you said that in my face. You want to know why I left half way thru' the conversation. I just cant believe what you said about our friendship. I was so close to crying. I hate it when friends backstab me. You think by letting go of the people that care about you will solve your problems. is it? You are so WRONG! Letting them go just makes you regret in the end. Maybe not now, but later on in life. I don't know how to get things into your head but I hope one day someone will get things into your head.

It looks like our friendship does not mean anything to you anymore. So what can I DO right? Thanks dee for all the times you were there. But for now, you can go back to those, YOU THINK, knows you best. Cause it seems like, I WASN'TE BEST FRIEND YOU WERE LOOKING FOR! Friends like kasmi, shima and shahirah are the ones I want to keep. So get things straight! :)

This will remain in the past.

title: I HATE LIFE!
date: Friday, September 21, 2007
time:2:53 PM

I hate life cos nothing makes sense anymore.

My family is not by my side.

They don't believe in me anymore.

I hide in my room everyday even though I didnt do anything.

I pretend that nothing happened but they don't care.

My grades are awful.

And I don't know if i can make it.

I hate life.

I HATE LIFE.

happy 8months anniversary to dee&ahtank!

keep each other happy always. :)

title: Friends are IMPORTANT to me
date: Wednesday, September 12, 2007
time:10:05 AM

*the person who tagged you: nadia :)
*my relationship with her: my councillor&my old friends sister&friend&friends gf
*5 impressions you have on her/him: cute, weird, noisy, has to learn to stop smiling & friendly
*memorable thing she/he has done for you: NOTHING! :(
*most memorable thing she/he has said to you: HMMMMMM!!!! :)
*if she/he becomes your lover, you will: love her like there is no tml.
*if she/he becomes your lover, you will: make sure the relationship will work.
*if she/he becomes your enemy, the reason would be: she is noisy and irritating!
*if she/he becomes your enemy, you will: KILL HER!
*your overall impression for her/he: A friend that I would neve want to lose or forget!
*how do you think the people around you feel about you: I think they are ok with me but sometimes they will get irritated!
*characteristics you love about yourself: Someone that people can talk to too!
*characteristics you hate about yourself: Scared to lose friends cos I'm scared to be ALONE!
*the most ideal person you want to be is: MYSELF!
*for the people you care about, what would you like to say: i LOVE ALL OF YOU BUT IF I MADE YOU ANGRY, I'M SORRY! YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST THINGS THAT HAS EVER HAPPEN TO ME.

*Please pass this around to 10 ppl who you wold like to know how they feel about you.
1) shima
2) kasmi
3) nurul
4) adam
5) shalih
6) siti
7) sarah
8) nadia
9) sarah
10) razi

*who is no.6 having relationship with: ERWIN! my friend
*is no.9 female or male: female
*if no.7 and no.10 be togather, will they be good: i don think so! :)
*what is no.2 studying: The same thing as me!
*when was the last time you chat with no.3: i think it was a week ago. we were talking about grad nite!
*what type of music does no.8 like: anything that makes her move her body, i guess!
*does no.1 have siblings: yes!
*will you woo no.3: NO!
*how about no.7: NO!
*is no.4 single: NOPE!
*whats the surname is no.5: Mahli
*whats the hobby of no.4: hanging out with his gf and acting cool!
*does no.5 and no.9 get along well: They don know each other.
*where is no.2 studying: KCP!
*say someting casual about no.1: she is a GOOD friend!
*have you ever develop feelings for no.8: I hope not!
*where does no.9 live: ang mo kio (i think)
*what colour does no.4 like: blue :(
*are no.1 and no.5 best friends: friends but not good friends
*does no.7 like no.2: they are friends.
*how did you get to know no.2: my primary & secondary friend
*does no.1 have any pets: yes! rabbits and fishes
*is no.7 the sexiest person in the world: She thinks she is! :)

I cant believe I played this game. I guess i was bored. But anyway, I'm really tired the past few days. Not been getting enough sleep. I guess it is the exam stress. Nothing much has happen in school. That is how boring the examination is!

I can neve please all of my friends.

I don know why.

I don want to lose any of you.

So I guess I have to choose.

I'm scared to be alone.

From now on...

I will only be there for people who really care about me.

Those that thinks I'm a ragged doll that they can throw around...

Please go away!

I'm sorry to those that I have hurt the past few days.

I really am sorry.

Do you forgive me?

title: If that's ok with you
date: Saturday, September 08, 2007
time:5:56 PM

I can believe it. School is starting in 2 days and I've not done anything at all for my preparations for o levels. I don knw wat the HELL i am doing half the time. I am always infront of the television either watching my favourite movie or just watching music videos. I cant help it! I'm losing it. I cant be doing this for the rest of my time I have before the o levels. I don knw about the rest of you but I don feel any fear. I don feel like I have a major examinations at the end of the year. I don knw why. I just scared that I don do well and i'm stuck in my own world, without a school to go to after graduation. Poly is not an easy school to get admitted too, i can admit. I'm just so scared that I let myself and family down. I don wan to waste my 5 years to nothing. HELP ME PLEASE! But the thing that i am really happy about is the fact that school is starting. I function better in school then at home. Cant wait to be all my friends and classmates.

Miss you guys!

IF THAT'S OK WITH YOU

by Shayne Ward

Love the way that you look without your make-up

I had a girl before we met but we broke up

Theres something about you that makes me want to step up

Step up and be with you

If thats okay with you

We'll keep the neighbours awake too late too late

Coz imma make you feel so good how i see its happening

We'll keep the neighbours awake too late too late

Coz baby i wanna step up and be with you

If thats okay with you

Im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth

Im gonna thank your mother just for giving you birth

Im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry

If thats okay with you

I wanna keep your toothbrush at my apartment

Make a second set of keys and ask you to move in

Im not crazy

I know what im getting myself in

I wanna live with you

If thats okay with you

Im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth

Im gonna say to your mother just for giving you birth

Im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry

If thats okay with you

Yeah yeah

We'll keep the neighbours awake too late too late

I wanna love you this way that way this way

We'll keep the neighbours away too late too late

I wanna love you this way that way this way

title: NEVER DINE-IN AT PIZZA HUT (J8)!
date: Friday, September 07, 2007
time:3:38 PM

I had the worst experience at pizza hut on wednesday. I came back from f&n remedial and i was exhausted. Upon reaching home, my family went out to ikea in tampiness. The place is enormous! I had so much fun. I bought 2 red boxes that looks really cute. Buying things slowly to change my room. So..... after shopping so much, we went back home to bishan. Before heading home, we headed to pizza hut for dinner. Wanted to try the new outlet, see whether they were good but my hopes were killed after the whole thing. We were sitted nicely at this really nice spot. I could see the kitchen from where i was and everyone was nice. One of the girls took our order and went off. I ordered the chicken royale baked rice. It looked nice in the menu. Anyway, after 15minutes, my mom's and aunty's dish arrived and they began to eat. They could not wait for the rest of us cos their food would get cold. Yusoff's dish came and so did the pizza. While waiting for my dish, I ate the pizza first as it was so nice and it was calling out my name. Next, my brother's dish came and I was the last one. I was hungry and having a bad day, and the last thing i ever needed was someone making me pissed. (Girls would understand what i was going thru'.) I waited for 30 minutes and everyone in my family had finished their dishes and mine was not even close. I was pissed by then! Service is so slow. Not only that was horrible. The way the workers acted was horrible too. The whole outlet was infested with malay people. Not trying to be racist but you can neve find so many malay people working at an outlet before. They were talking loudly about nonsence. (they were minahs of course) Their eyes would roll whenever they looked at my direction course i was giving them the "ur so stupid" look. I was pissed! Service bad and worker bad!

It has been about 30 to 45 minutes and my dish is still not there. By this time, my stomach was rumbling and i could actually eat an elephant! My mom asked one of the gals to check whether my dish was done. Guess what she said.

"I'm so sorry but can you wait for 15 more minutes please?"

OMG! Can you believe it. They made me wait for so long and now another 15 minutes. As pissed as I was, i told to cancel by dish as i did not want it anymore, and told her to be the add-on dish that they forgot and the ice-cream that my brother ordered. They are so slow. The manager came over and offered me garlic bread on the house but i was so pissed that i declined! The 2 other dishes came and when we were about to leave. My dish arrived even through we cancelled it. AAAARRRGGGHHHH! How can I not be pissed at this people! I told them to pack my dish. They gave us a further 10% discount and the garlic bread and my dish was on the house! That would not make me feel any better. I was still hungry and still pissed! I went to pizza hut to get rid of my hunger but i left with the hunger that i went in!

title:
date: Monday, September 03, 2007
time:2:52 PM

I was going thru some old stuff that I found in some old boxes. I found my old primary school pencil box, a pink pen that diana lend me but i forgot to return back and many more. It seems to bring back alot of golden memories that really turned my life around. Those were the times when I had so much fun as a teen and I learned alot about myself. I loved those times. If only, now was like the past. We were always full of laughter and smiles and that always got us into lots of trouble. I really wish that the future would be like the past. We had so many plans for the future that we have not completed but it looks that wont be happening anytime soon. But, I still hope things would return back to its original position and everyone would forgive each other. Just try to think of those people that has been there for you, during your tough times, they will always be there. It is only, if you realise that they are there??

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