you said move on (where do i go)

title: My Life Is Falling Like A Brick Wall.
date: Thursday, August 16, 2007
time:5:30 PM

Nothing is the same. I don't feel like the old aisyah that everyone knows or use to know. Everything & everyone around me has change. I just dont like it at all. Yesterday, I was shocked when Jack (not the persons real name) called me. He was concerned. I never thought that he would call me but he did. I really salute him for being so mature and real to himself. But in actual fact, nothing can be done to change whatever that has gone wrong. But I am glad that he tried to make a big change. Back to me now, my life is not the same like what I said earlier. Sucky, boring and stressful. Those are the words that best describe me right now. I was brought up a boring person but my friends make me fun and loving. Without them, I would have been just as boring as the day I was born. I cant even spent time with my mom. She is so caught up with housework that she forgot about her only daughter. We use to have so much fun togather but not anymore. Hais. That is life. People just forget about the people that cares about them. How could this happen? We dont spent time with each other anymore and we fight more then we smile to each other anymore.

Today, I found out that my grandfather(my grandmom's brother) passed away in malaysia this morning. I cant believe he is gone. He was like my best friend. He was the best person to hang out with, whenever I spent time in malaysia. Nobody knows how he died. I cant take it whenever the people I care about so much, is taken away from me just like that. It is just not fair! I want him back, but in reality, I cant. May he rest in PEACE! Love you, TUK NGAH! :)

Have you ever taught of changing for the people you love most.

We care to much for you but you dont seem to realise that.

WE are not here to hate you.

But...

You made a big mistake of disowning us.

I cant believe you said that even after all the things we had gone thru'.

This is what I hate about the past few days.

We dont do this for any reason

but...

It is to make you STRONGER!

But you don't seem to get that, do you?