you said move on (where do i go)

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date: Saturday, August 09, 2008
time:10:58 PM

life doesnt seem to be the same.

two separate worlds.

two separate dreams.

two separate personalites.

but

one love.

i hate the feeling of being left alone.

have u ever hugged someone and realise that it was real&true?

have u ever looked at someone in the eyes and just get lost?

i have.

that is how bad i have fallen in love with him.

i wan him to be by my side all day.

but

people forbid it.

you will always be my baby.

always.

but.....

my life is not the same anymore.

i don dare tell him that i'm scared.

i'm scared that things wont be the same.

i'm scared to say my feelings cause of the past.

he knows wat i mean.

i keep them all inside.

waiting for a time to pour them out.

i lie to myself everyday..

saying that things will be ok but its nt.

so many things he doesnt knw.

and i just dont know wat to do with it.

someone help me before i drown in my own feelings..

i cry myself to sleep hoping that i'll feel better the next day.

even this he doesnt knw.

i'm tempted to do many other forbiding things but...

can he help me?

can he?

but how will he knw if i don tell him anything?

oh how i wish i could..