you said move on (where do i go)

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date: Saturday, February 28, 2009
time:5:41 PM

Went out with Shima today. Headed over to Queensway cause she wanted to purchase a bag, but in the end, i was the one that bought a new bag from Billabong. Its cute, just nice for school. It was nice to go out with her, along. Had time to catch up with stuff and update each other of the latest things we were up too. As per normal, boyfriends and school is the main topic.

Had lunch at KFC then headed over to IKEA to get something for Yu Ying's baby girl. It's really hard to decide what to get for a newborn. We went all over the kids section, just trying to figure out what looks nice. In the end, we bought her a bed cover that looks like a frog and a small teddy bear. Hope she likes it. Walked around Queensway Shopping Centre, to search for Shima's bag then made our way to Mount Alvernia Hospital. Met Diana and Kasmi there, then went up to see YY. Laura was so cute. Congrats to YY&Husband. Will upload the pictures soon, once i get them.

i need you re-assure me that nothing is wrong.
i need to know that your confident.
i'm paranoid now.
i may be thinking negative..
so tell me i'm wrong.

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date: Thursday, February 26, 2009
time:9:50 PM

SORRY IS ALL I HAVE TO SAY.

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date: Wednesday, February 25, 2009
time:9:21 PM

Today was a rather long day. Had a briefing about choosing of major's for second year, and it was quite disappointing. Why is it disappointing? Well.. to know that there are only 40 slots for advertising classes, the chances of getting in, is slimmer. There is a hard fight between other classes, and i'm starting to think that i have to work even harder then those people to make it through. I meet other requirements, like good in english, attended the elective classes but not my GPA. My GPA is the only thing that could bring me down now. Lets just keep my fingers crossed.

I had more then 2 hours break and had nothing much to do. In the end, went to watch a movie with Sean Lee. HAHAHA. We watched Outlander, its about dragons and stuff. Funny to know that the movie was not bad. HAHAHA. Even though it was about dragons and stuff, the fact that i actual enjoyed made it worth, the time and money. I didnt pay a cent cause Sean owed me money anyway. SHA! CHARLENE! ZARA! The show about the vampire girl is out already. We should go and watch during one of our long breaks!

Did really well for video production and i'm so proud of myself. I did most of the work and i earned the most marks for them. I cant wait to start on the next assignment! Its about a true ghost story. HAHAHA. Well.. that was my day and nothing much after that. Have plenty of things to do so i'll see u guys soon. BYE.

P.S. Reminder, LEFT4DEAD is on for tomorrow. Don't forget!

I have alot of things to say to some people but the thought i might hurt them
is fresh in my head.
I know you guys are having a rough time with life.
But i just don't want you guys to regret about your studies cause of your problems.
I know its hard and i understand your pain.
But just promise you'll step up your game.
it's almost the end of year one and still you guys are doing this.

Good friends will always be there for you.
Remember that.

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date: Monday, February 23, 2009
time:12:38 AM

What did i do for my anniversary?
Well..
I spent it with my brother's, bowling at Yishun Safra.
I know its not the way i should celebrate it but that was the only thing i could do.
His working and i don't think i could go out anyway.
His busy with life and so am i, but its ok. We'll some other time.

I was talking to my mom about me&amrit, while waiting for my murtabak to be ready. I was very honest and straight to the point, and she handled it very smoothly. She, surprising, wasn't angry nor upset, but willing excepting the fact that i'm growing up and is ready to move on with life. She told me that she had no say in how i choose to live life but she'll be there to advice me. She was also telling me her 'grandma' stories about her ex-christian bf. HAHA. Now, the only person i have to worry about is my dad and his family.

This is a big step for me, and him, i think. This is the point where i know there is no turning back. I don't usually backout on things i've set my mind to, its something i took into consideration, a very long time ago. OMG, I'M GROWING UP! :D

Ok. I guess that's it for me now. Peace out. :D

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date: Sunday, February 22, 2009
time:4:00 PM

HAPPY 4YEARS&6MONTHS ANNIVERSARY!

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date: Saturday, February 21, 2009
time:2:52 PM

I am convinced that i've changed. Change for the good or bad is for people to judge me, but all i know is that i've changed. Spent my whole day with him yesterday trying to figure things out, but we didnt even speak. We looked into each others eyes and hoped that we wouldn't cry infront of each other.

People do change. Its not for us to decide how they change but its for us to change together with them, to make things seem right between them. I can't change the past but i can make sure the future is right. I'm convinced that AMRIT is the ONE. The one is spend the rest of my life with. I know and confident. I don't need expensive gifts from him to make me happy. We don't need to meet always to have a connection. All we need is to know that whatever happens, i will always be thinking of you.

Anyway, happy 15months for shima&sham. (i hope i got it right?) Happy 2nd year to dee&ahtank. Happy Anniversary to me&amrit. (i seriously forgot how long we are together!) HAHAHA.

Amrit.
Isn't it fun knowing that every month we celebrate our anni, we move one step closer to spending the rest
of our lifes together.
We were just like Dee&Ahtank & Shima&Sham.
And now we're here.
No matter how angry i was at you, thinking of you was what i was doing.
Love you syg!

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date: Thursday, February 19, 2009
time:10:45 PM

Had a normal day in school besides the 'extras' that ruined my mood. I had to find something to occupy my mind before i start breaking down as i read his msgs. My classmates were nice enough to camwhore with me, even though class was going on. I also realised that i cant sit alone whenever i'm having problems. I tend to break down easily now.

I'm addicted to lan-gaming, thanks to sha, sean and zara.
DIE ZOMBIE DIE!

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date: Tuesday, February 17, 2009
time:6:08 PM

There is no point for me writing down my thoughts or talking no more.
I tend to upset you with whatever i do or say.
I don't know what else I can do, to be there for you.
I really don't.
I have officially reached to the point of no returns.
I'm going away for now.
Far away from you so i don't upset you no more.

I'll be back when i have something nice to update if not, i'm somewhere, avoiding people.

Sorry is what i am.
Hanging on, is what i'm doing.

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date: Monday, February 16, 2009
time:10:33 PM

Its very hard to make things sound fine. I have doubts. Doubts that make you think about what you have in life and what you seem to lack. I put up a fake smile everywhere hoping that someone would notice that something is wrong. I don't know how to explain it. I guess only Shima knows what i'm talking about. I want to be myself but its hard to be. I want to live life the way I use too, but dreams comes in the way. I love everything about the past life but now i find no peace with it. I have problems, just like everyone else. I do thinks that make people angry, that I seem to lose interest in talking. You want me to be happily talking, smiling as i speak my life away, but your not there to make me smile, no more. This does not refer to anyone, but myself. Don't get me wrong. Things are not the same no more. AISYAH KNOWS.

I know most of you would read this and not understand how its going to end, honestly, i don't need your help. I learned to grow up&mature. Living by myself without the comfort of anyone else. People come and go. AISYAH KNOWS.

You asked me why i sound so fierce or moody whenever it comes to talking to you. I think too much before speaking a word cause things i say may spark a conflict. I know you have dreams too, but my dreams always evolve around you. I'm sorry if i don't sound the way you want me to, I can't help it but be this way. 'Emo' may the word most of you would use, but I would rather call it 'alone-ness'. That is how i feel. Doing this alone in my life. Maturity is what i gain but happiness is what i lose.

I don't expect you to understand. Just know that I support you in everything.

title: The UGLIEST baby ever!
date: Thursday, February 12, 2009
time:10:33 PM

MakeMeBabies.com - What will your baby look like?

"I think he got his looks from AMRIT! HAHAHAHAHA!"

HAHAHAHAHA! I'm was bored and thought of taking a short break. Have you guys tried this thing? I had the guts to actually try this stupid thing. I even had the guts to update about it. Hilarious! I really hope that if i were to really have a kid with Amrit after we get married, and the kid looks like that after 9 months, i will slip into DEPRESSION! Not only depression, and the phobia to make more babies! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. AISYAH AISYAH AISYAH!

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date:
time:2:13 AM

Zouk Assignment finally completed. It looks funny, i know. But its completed!
I survived Photoshop!
HAHAHAH.

Sha, get well soon.
This is for you!
Hehehe! :D

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date: Tuesday, February 10, 2009
time:9:51 PM

"ARE YOU SERIOUS?"

That was the first thing i said to them when they surprised me, for my BELATED birthday. HAHA. I'm impressed. They did surprise me very well. Without any suspicion. VERY GOOD! I taught them well. HAHA. THANKYOU SO MUCH. You guys really made my day.

The cake they bought was delicious but we didnt really like the feelings. SOURRR! HAHA. But overall, my day was great.

All of us are rushing to meet datelines. We're managing well and it helps when all of us are there for each other.

Can't wait for the outing with my old girlfriends. :D

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date:
time:1:17 AM

FUCK YOU AISYAH!

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date: Monday, February 09, 2009
time:8:45 PM

Hey people. School was normal. Amazingly, nothing happened. There were no surprises up their sleeves. Quite amazed at that. But its okayy. Spent time with them getting better by the day. No stress, just normal things like school assignments and tight datelines.

I hope my lecturers realise the amount of commitment i am putting into my work. No more 'last minute girl'. I'm paying more attention in class. Getting things done with perfection and making sure to be neat. HAHA.

Anyway, Sean was extra talkative today. He kept talking and talking. As per normal, talking about nonsense. But somehow he still keeps us entertain. HAHA. Ate at KFC, then had some ice cream before heading back to school.

But before that, I decided to get the bag i wanted from SPIN THE BOTTLE. (Sorry picture very blurr). It was in my head since the first time i saw it and i thought, why not buy something for myself as a present. Anyway, i deserve it.

The bag many cost more then expected but I deserve something expensive after all the sacrifices i did for my school expenses.

Ohya, i wore the skirt that shima&waty bought for me at it was so nice! HAHAHA. Shima, it wasn't even short la. It was at my knee already.

Basically, that's it. CIAO! :D

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date:
time:12:21 AM

Thanks for bringing me for bowling.

Thanks for the beautiful skirt, Shima&Waty.

Thank You for the ipod nano!
Love you.

Now what are the bunch of you up too?
I'm scared to death. :D

Thanks to:
Grandma for the $10 you always never fail to give me during my birthdays.
"AISYAH, pergi beli ice cream k?" :D

My whole family, thanks for the money.
Thanks for trying to make it a happy day.

YESS PEOPLE, AISYAH LATIFF IS OFFICIALLY 19!

I really have thank all this people in my life for making it such a memorable time in my life. For those that wished me: (according to the timing)

SHIMA
AMRIT
DIANA
RENUKA
JOEL
SHA
CHARLENE
VINO
SEAN
AUNTY SUHAILA
& etc

Thank you! If i did miss out your name, i'm so sorry! But thank yo anyway. Back to school work now. Ciao!

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date: Sunday, February 08, 2009
time:4:37 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AISYAH!
May all your dreams and ambitions come true.
Enjoy it while you can, and let the past be the past.

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date: Friday, February 06, 2009
time:11:34 PM

GREAT DAY.

I won't give away much about my day. Planning to update about today, tomorrow and my birthday all together. Amazingly, nothing fishy happened. Just people weirdly missing me at that moment.

Anyway, I had a great out. Thanks for bringing me out. Needed it badly. :D

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY FARHAN!

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date: Thursday, February 05, 2009
time:6:40 PM

I hate PhotoShop. Its one of those inventions MANKIND creates that adds more stress in my life. Its fun to edit but when it comes to assignments, i rather die.

My assignments are plying and next week is the dateline. Nothing seems to be in order and i'm scared that i cant get things done on time. Was suppose to attend Farhan's surprise gathering today but i wasn't going to be able to make it on time and i'm too beat up from school. I can hardly open my eyes and i cant stop yawning.

Meeting the girls tmr. Can't wait for bowling. It's been a long time.

i love you. :D

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date:
time:2:06 AM

I'M IN LOVE WITH MY 'BESTFRIEND'.

My body still tingles. I have never felt so loved before. His my sinless pleasure. His my man. The man I will marry. The man i will love and cherish for the rest of my life. We may have had plenty of problems the past few days, but we try. Nothing makes me insecure. I trust him and I love him. My body tingles from the sound of his voice and I yearn for his presense. Nothing makes me happier then him. Corny? Maybe.

I rushed to his phone call today. Knowing that he doesn't like to wait. Not a second before nor a second later. He maybe busy but has he ever forgetten us. NOPE. He may be an ass lately but his my 'ass'. HAHA.

Amrit. Stop thinking about your 'upcoming' bike. Pass your test first then think. You think ahead and hardly about the present. Stay focus. Be in the moment. Enjoy life and stop stressing about your future. Its going to be fine. If you want it badly, it will happen.

I love you!

Now we have to celebrate Valentines Day.
Doesn't mean we have been together for a long time, doesn't mean we get to skip it.
:D

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date: Tuesday, February 03, 2009
time:8:44 PM

We went to TOY R US and we had a blast. It was my idea because all of us were tired and bored, and we needed a time out from being us. Since we were at Paragon, why not visit TOY R US right? We played with toys. Acted like kids, and it was fun.

Charlene couldn't make up her mind if she wanted to be a Mexican dancer or a DIVA. HAHA. As for Zara, she was so tired that she sat together with the toys and looked like one of them. We were so childish and i have never seen my classmates so enthusiastic. Sha was acting totally weird thruout the whole trip. She was at the barbie doll section. I think she's changing, no more black but more pink. HAHA.

There are more picture but mostly with SHA, i think. Will upload some other time.

I hate coming home cause nothing at home makes me happy. I can't go anywhere due to the "tradition". I can't even highlight my bloody hair without my mother asking me a million questions. I asked her today and was totally ready for it. She gave me the green light but the million questions pissed me off. The aftermath of the agreement made me think twice. I decided not to ask her anymore, so frustrating, so irritating. My mother, honestly, is trying to be my best friend, trying to stay connected wit me, by she's trying too hard. Listening and trying to be like her friends. All those makcik that talks but never thinks.

Stop trying, be yourself la! HAIS. I don't know la. I have problems from everyone, no one gives me a break.

On a lighter note, my printer has arrived. It from HP and its great. Can print pictures and stuff. Cool dude. I don't have to spent money or disturb my friends with this printing thingy. Went for a haircut. Hair to thick already. Hais. I guess that's all. CIAO.

Betty Sec School 5 vs Guanyang Sec School 1
Good job bro!

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date: Monday, February 02, 2009
time:8:48 PM

I made a ring for metalsmithing class today, and, honestly, it looks good. Better then what I was imagining it to be. I had a hard day trying to keep my anger in. The reason for my anger is stupid but it was different for me. Classes were ok. Armando's letterform class was getting alittle complicated. Serif/Sans serif fonts is actually very hard to understand. Went for break at Cathay. Had Japanese food and it was delicious, but from tmr onwards, i'll be bringing food from home. Food that we usually eat in school are always so expensive so i rather not spent anything.

Sat at Cathay for 2 hours with Charlene, Sean, Zara and Sha. It was fun. We talked and talked more bullshit and was full when we arrived in class. Ms Lye's class was as always packed with work but I had the drawing mood so i completed more then i usually do. It was fun sitting beside Zara. She keeps you entertain. Oh ya, Zara was from KCPPS too but she was there only for one year. She was in Glenn and HongSeng's class. Its such a small world. She brought pictures of her primary one class and she looked so different. She had a crush on Glenn. HAHA. Most probably, i'll bring my primary school pictures too.

Amrit came to fetch me from school today. He was complaining that he wasted time coming down because he only came to fetch then sent me home, so i decided to sit down with him for a while. He bought 2 milkshakes, and we headed over to the interchange, sitting at the exact spot where he will always wait for me during secondary days. It was so funny being there. I remembered coming down late everytime and he would always complain about it while walking to school. It was nice to be there with him, after so long. The 2 of us needed time alone. So caught up with life and ambitions.

ThankYOU amrit for the shirt & ciao people! HEHE.

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date: Sunday, February 01, 2009
time:9:47 PM

Assignments are plying up and they don't seem to be done, no matter how many i have done. I took a short break from them by going over to my grandmother's house. Had to sent over food and decided to spent some time with my girl cousins. They were so cute. They are currently oppsessed with PET SOCIETY on FACEBOOK.

Then I went out window shopping with my brother who made me laugh so much. His full of shit but so adorable at times. We wore the same colour clothes and we looked like a couple. Thank God we look alike so people don't mistake us for a couple. We both bought some stuff for our everyday use, not clothes, no money.

Something i realised about my brother was that he would grow up into someone that a girl would love and cherish all the time. He has this quality that keeps the girls coming. His like me, doesn't like to be played around with. So girls, his looking for THE ONE. HAHA. Why am i talking about tha idiot anyway..

Anyway, that's all for today. Bye/Ciao!

i somehow miss you today.