you said move on (where do i go)

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date: Tuesday, March 31, 2009
time:11:21 PM

PISSED is what i am.

TIRED is what i always feel.

RESTLESS nights i go through.

SO DO YOU STILL THINK THAT YOUR LIFE IS WORST, FUCKER!

ARRGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!

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date: Sunday, March 29, 2009
time:11:13 PM

I'm kinda looking forward to school tmr! :D

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date: Saturday, March 28, 2009
time:10:51 PM

NAME : SHA

AGE: 18+

NICKNAME: meOww.. -____-

SCHOOL: NAFA

WEAKNESS: Easily Fooled BY MEEE!!

COMMENT: She is a girl with a big ego. Horrible attitude. Don't know how i ever got to know her! HAHAHAHAHAHA! Just joking. I LOVE YOU SHA!

HEYY. Been missing for sometime due to me being sick. I don't really have things to update though. I will return with more pictures and latest news okayy. BYE!

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date: Monday, March 23, 2009
time:8:26 PM

Firstly, i would just like to wish me&amrit a very HAPPY BELATED ANNIVERSARY. I know i have been missing from my blog, but you guys should know that i'm really caught up with my work. I promise i'll try to update daily with the latest news, ok?

I had a long day in school today. Lessons were very boring, but my classmates made it fun. HAHA. We had a cam-whore sessions that resulted to individual pictures that turned out to be so UGLY. I'll upload them slowly daily, introducing to you guys my dearest classmates.

Okay folks.. This is all i have for today. Will update soon k? BYE BYE!

SCIENTOLOGY KILLS! ARGGGGHHH!

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date: Saturday, March 21, 2009
time:7:11 PM

Old memories. Fond memories.

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date: Tuesday, March 17, 2009
time:10:00 PM

HELLO.
I'm back, finally, after so long. Haven had the mood to update due to stress, so i decided to go missing for awhile. But anyway, i'm back. Have been catching up on movies that i really, badly, had to watch. For example, MY BLOODY VALENTINE 3D & COMING SOON. I don't know why i have the cravings for horror flicks nowadays, but i have definitely spooked myself. I screamed like a small girl today and clung onto my bf like a scary-cat, a few days ago. I scared myself, twice on a week, consecutive times. AISYAH AISYAH AISYAH! Nothing better to do.

Right now, i'm slacking at Cathay. Trying hard not to doze off. I cant take it. The rest of them are sound asleep, and i'm here blogging about it. KESIAN AISYAH!

My fever got the best of me yesterday. I was totally shagged and to a point of no return. I was losing my strength to even stand. Finally, my body is shutting down on me. Can't do anything, but wait. Hope its gone soon cause i will be having a long week. I guess that is all for now. CIAO!

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date: Friday, March 13, 2009
time:8:47 PM

CHECK OUT SHIMA'S NEW WEBCAM!!
HAHAHAAHAHHA!

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date: Wednesday, March 11, 2009
time:10:29 PM

I KNOW WHO KILLED ME. This show can literally kill your brain cells slowly, one by one, if you don't concentrate or spot the clues. It makes you fit the clues yourself. I was having a hard time trying to solve it too, but the ending was satisfying. But the scene that really blew my mind away was... The love scene. Its a M18 show anyway. So you guys should know what i was talking about. It was so freaky long! Such an weird moment for all of us. Lindsay Lohan, what do you expect. So this is something that you guys need to watch too.

HARD CANDY. One of the most entertaining movies that i have ever seen. It keeps you glued to your seat. What makes it so special? HAYLEY, played by Ellen Page. She is what we call a "hard candy". For a young, smart adolescent, she was able to make a grown pedophile, cry and beg for his life back. Doesn't that just fascinates you. She was able to make JEFF, believe her every single lie. Twist his words, screw his mind and inflect so much pain, and not forgetting, humiliated him by castrating his man-ly-hood. HAHAHA. This show should be watched by every single horny bastards out there, who thinks they can score with any girl they please. Try getting stuck with a hayley-a-like, and see how your life spin out of control.

Its a show to watch, people!

I had a great time at Sha's place and i really wanna thank sha&family for the warmest welcome that me&charlene could ever ask for. The rootbeer marinated chickens was delicious and i want the recipe. HAHAHAHA. I met her friends, hang out with them, made a bond and had a blast. The amount of laughs i had was uncountable and it was just perfect. Thanks guys!

I was in worst condition this morning, and i had a bad night. My body was giving up on me and i was too weak for anything. I wasnt able to bring myself up, infront of the whole class to present, and i felt bad. I need some time to regain some strength. I wished it was as easy as MAFIA WARS, where you can pay the hospital to gain back your strength! Oh, tak ehhhhh! HAHAHAHAHAHA! Okeydokey, nothing more to say, nothing more to write. BYEEEE!

AMRIT.
I HATE YOU!

NOT.

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date:
time:4:23 AM

hey.

Its officially 4:24am, and i'm still wide awake. Actually, i'm the only one that is awake. The rest of them are asleep soundly. Snoring away. I'm at Sha's place right now, having a sleepover that was rather different this time. Watched movies, lepak at the playground till 2 plus, movies once again, then finally assignments. I didn't even realise that its going to be this SLEEPLESS! I promised my dad and loving-yet-dramatic boyfriend that i would get some sleep but i guess i have to break that promise. SORRY SYG!

Finally, i spent time with sha's goofy friends who really made me&charlene feel like home. They were so nice, yet so funny la. Ahn is like an "aunty" la! HAHAHAHA! Sorry aunty. It was nice to chill for a while, but we were downstairs till 2 in the morning.

Back to assignments, the more i think about it, the more i get worried. The more time i spend on this update, the more precious time, i waste. I have paintings to do and re-designing 3 computer icons. Now you guys must be thinking how lucky your life's are. The amount of SLEEP, you guys get, the confortable bed, the amazing-yet-boring life you have. Its something compared to mine. Be thankful people!

My migraines are coming back and its ruining my mood to do anything la. I hope it goes off soon. I really need to concentrate. I guess that is all i have for now. I just realise that i write better when i'm half asleep! HAHAHAHAHA! Ok! BYE!

SYG.
I love you more then a kid loves chocolate.
More then the moon loves the sky.
I love you more then the world loves the universe..
etc etc etc.
HAHAHAHA!

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date: Monday, March 09, 2009
time:9:04 PM

Didn't do much today. Spent time with my highly 'dramatic' bf, who apparently loves singing 'HALO' from beyonce. He is the biggest 'merajuk' king on the face of the earth, and the sweetest guy i could ever ask for. I know that, if his reading this right now, he will be smiling. He likes it when i mention about him on my blog. HAHAHA.

He showed me some pictures of bikes that he was interested in, and i am officially convinced that guys can be fickle minded too. He likes almost everything but seems to have difficulty choosing, for some reason. I know its mostly about money but he should just get something he likes, affordable and SAFE! I don't know how much i can emphasis on the safety part, but i know his a SMART guy. (I HOPE SO)

Ok. Thats all i got for today. Will update after i get back from Sha's place. BYE!

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date: Sunday, March 08, 2009
time:1:22 PM

I was going through my picture album from secondary school, and it made me miss the times i had with my group of friends. We knew each other for 11+years and i really miss them. The jokes we shared and the outings we had. I really miss them!

I was sitting on my bed last night, thinking about what i had in my life. Everything that i could ever ask for, i got it. But sometimes, i get this feeling that those things don't mean the same no more. Maybe its just me, but the feeling is so overwhelming. He use to sent me sweet messages, that he created overnight but now i don't get those anymore. I know its something stupid, but that kept me going. To know that his always there, makes me happy. But now, both of us are just too busy for all this. Sometimes, growing up isn't that fun after all.

i guess we're just busy with life.

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date: Saturday, March 07, 2009
time:11:37 PM

I am finally having a short break, for the whole week. Well.. I don't think it will be much of a break but i'll take it anyway. Had the worst week of my life. From sleepless nights to deadlines and not forgetting fights. Nothing made sense last week. Everything was out of control. I really need to get back on my feet. Get things back on track for the upcoming week, more relaxing, den back to assignments.

I decided to major in advertising for my year two but its a tough fight. On the day of the dateline, i was caught between advertising and video production. Listening to the opinions of my lecturers, really made me think of my future. It was a hard choice but i made it anyway. Hopefully, i get into advertising if not i fall back onto video production, which is also not bad.

I can't wait for the sleepover at Sha's place on tuesday. It's more of a assignment gathering at her place but hopefully, it will be fun too. HEHE. Well.. I guess that's all for tonight. BYE.

I WANT TO WATCH MY BLOODY VALENTINE 3D!
Oh ya..
I MISS YOU TOO. :D

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date: Thursday, March 05, 2009
time:9:05 PM

Have you ever wondered how you would look like if you were a cartoon?
HAHAHA.
Now i know, how i would look like. :D

I have officially broken my past record, for not sleeping for 4 days.

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date:
time:3:24 AM

No matter what you do..
I still love you.

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date: Wednesday, March 04, 2009
time:2:48 AM

i was wrong to expect too much.
i guess i have been unfair.
one decision i made, changes the way someone thinks of you.
i guess that's my life.
i'm ungrateful for what i have.
but now i know..
i just don't understand.

what broke my heart was to know that you think i don't understand you.
that broke it into a million pieces.
broken to the place of no return.
i'm speechless.
heartbroken.
lonely.

aisyah wishes she's gone..

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date:
time:12:43 AM

Had a long day, today. Tried keeping myself occupied with work but somehow i seem to come back to the same old thing. Didn't sleep last night and most probably tonight too. I guess this is the way i chose my life to be, and this is how its going to be.

Quarreled with my dad. I don't know what else i can do to make things seem right for me now. First was Amrit, now my Dad. This is not the way i wanted to spent 2009. I cry more now. I have totally given up on living happy now. Somehow i mean it this time.

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date: Monday, March 02, 2009
time:9:54 PM

We have been together for too long for me to feel this way.
I know your angry.
I don't expect you to understand why i did what i did today.
But i want you to know this..
I didn't do it on purpose.
So what do u expect me to do now?

I'm embarrassed, for crying in public.
We're both angry and we say stupid things.
But you know i don't mean it.
I just don't want this 5 years to be for nothing.
I'm trying and I know your trying too.
I love this relationship too much, to let things slip away.
I love you more.

Amrit..
I'm not like other girls who treat their relationship like shit.
I mean it when i say i love you.
I don't do things to make you angry.
I can honestly agree that most of the times, i make the worst decisions in life.
But just know that I don't do it on purpose.
I'm sorry for today & for what i said earlier.

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date: Sunday, March 01, 2009
time:8:53 PM

WHAT A DAY! My aunt finally decided to get engaged. She's been looking for her right man, and today she has finally declared that she's taken. CONGRATS TO CIK ITA & UNCLE ADI IMRAN.

Spent the whole day at my grand-aunts house. Did nothing much, except be the photographer for the day and also hairdresser. The whole house was packed with people, from my nenek's group of friends to my family, it was so packed. It was packed and warm, and everyone was sweating. HATED THE FEELING. But overall, the engagement was fun. My aunt was so happy that she was smiling the whole time. The groom sent over a bouquet of $10 notes = $70 in total. She was walking around the house with that bouquet. HAHA. I have not seen the guy yet, but from the picture, he looked like bhaihakki. His tall and not bad looking. HAHAHA.

Anyway, congrats once again to cik ita & uncle adi. That's all for today. BYE!

i miss you.