you said move on (where do i go)

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date: Thursday, April 16, 2009
time:11:02 PM

Im emotional, physically and mentally drenched from all the problems in my life. Too have someone you love say harsh things, makes things worst for you. If its that difficult for you to handle or cope with the things you have in your life, then let go of one. Your not forced into doing this, neither was I. But if you think its hard then by all means. I have convinced myself that i don't deserve this from anyone, not even you. Your not my father, to say things that you did. You think its funny to say things in the haste of anger? I hate you for the fact that you make me believe that I lack a quality in my life.

I may forgive or be forgiven in the future, if it does work out. But bear in mind, that the words you say, will always be remembered. You wanna work, go ahead but don't blame for your misery cause all i did was to support you. I will not bother you with my problems, no more. I mean it this time, just like the words you say.

I put a fake face on, everyday. Most of the time to hide my feelings or weakness. But Im not doing that no more. I will live life the way its suppose to be. I wont fight with nature nor fate. You may use my words against me now, I don't care. All i know is that, my sacrifices have gone unnoticed by you.