title: Mad World.
date: Tuesday, June 30, 2009
time:11:13 PM

AISYAH.
She sat in the corner of her bed feeling miserable. Feeling odd and pathetic. She has no answers to any of her questions, the suspense killed her silence. She didn't know what to feel anymore. She had no one around, as the tears fall from her eyes. She tried to call those closest to her heart but nothing made sense. She was surrounded with silence, emptiness.

This doesn't concern anyone. I just don't like myself today. Pathetic right?
I know!

title:
date: Monday, June 29, 2009
time:6:55 PM

SUPER TIRED!

title: My comeback.
date: Saturday, June 27, 2009
time:8:06 PM

1958-2009

Firstly, let me just pay tribute to the legendary "KING OF POP". I grew up listening to his music, as my dad was a huge fan. My dad had the 'forever famous' red thriller jacket and my uncles had the black mick hat. I was surrounded by the icon. Its such a waste to see him go at such a young age. MAY HE REST IN PEACE!

The much anticipated update. HAHAHA! Sorry for the long wait. I was either busy or not in the mood for an update. I have so many things to tell you guys about, but just don't know where to start.

Well.. My whole famil

y had a dinner session after a long time. Even though it wasnt the whole family, we still made alot of noise and chaos. We had our dinner at Billal restaurant, and the outcome was HORRIBLE. The service was slow and the food was not up to expectations. The frustrating part was.. they charged us a boom and for my family, it costed us $300. Not worth it at all. After dinner, we went for dessert at NorthPoint swensons. Everyone of us had ice cream and that was the time when it was the most chaotic. The noise we made, chased out most of the other customers. HAHA!

My aunt from India came down for my cousin's wedding which was held on the 14th. It was a beautiful wedding. My feets hurt like HELL after the wedding cause, im not a 'heels kinda person', so i struggled throughout the day. But overall, the whole wedding went well, and my abang and his wife are happily married.

What else did i miss out.. Oh yess. I have a sore butt after yesterday riding. Did i mention that my boyfriend has his bike already. My transportation issues is over. Had our first ride together yesterday and i will never forget it. Have you ever heard of a guy scolding his girlfriend in the middle of the ride, while riding? Well.. my boyfriend did tt, just because i moved my ass abit. HAAHAHA! We went to alot of places with ahfatt. Then met hoifai and went for dinner before heading home. I decided to go where he wanted to go for once. Follow him and his friends for once, cause he always follows me whenever im with my friends. It was not tt bad. Had fun and did i mention i laughed alot. :D Thanks syg for a great day! See you tmr night!

title:
date: Wednesday, June 17, 2009
time:8:51 PM

I know i have been missing for sometime. I've been working for the past 2 days.

I will be back as soon im done with work to upload pictures.
:D

welldoneaisyah!

title:
date: Friday, June 12, 2009
time:5:48 PM

i don't deserve to be treated like this by my own friends.
i may keep quiet but deep down i still remember.
when you need me, you find me if not then throw me back to the trash.
from your ego's to mood swings, it makes me sick to my stomach.
friends like this doesn't make life any easier.

title:
date: Monday, June 08, 2009
time:3:56 PM

CRANKY

; (adj.) easily irritated or annoyed

title:
date: Sunday, June 07, 2009
time:12:10 AM

My brother got me a new NIKE laptop sleeve.
THANKS ASYRAF! :D

title:
date: Thursday, June 04, 2009
time:2:13 PM

heyy. June is packed with activities, errands, jobs and even weddings. I guess its better this way when i'm packed with things to do. I still have some other things I want to plan. For example, outing trips with my KCP girls, NAFA fools and Miyaki. :D This are the small things i look forward to, during my holidays sooo.. Im trying to make them happen. I found some REALLY old pictures in my photobucket and they were good times.

Like those times when we had Physics lessons, and I had to partner Dee. She was always sitting opposite me doing her work with alot of noise. I would always disturb her cause when it was time to collect the long rulers, I had to do it cause she would be strugling due to her size. HAHAHA. She would later get angry and threaten to bite anyone who disturbs her.

The time when we had to cook dumplings for a Chinese New Year Competition and my class won the whole thing. Just because we made more then the rest. Each of us had a nickname, but the best was Kasmi, the MAID. She was the one who cleaned up the mess after the whole cooking session. Ms Cindy was the extra, always making noise! ISK!

Orr the time when we went for Rayyan's first birthday party. It was fun but Shima was merajuking at the playground. (that is whyy she is not in the picture) I had to pujuk her and i don't quite remember if it worked or not, but it was fun. These pictures helps me remember the times we had each other. I REALLY MISS YOU GUYS!

I spent my whole day at Amrit's place yesterday. I had to cause SOMEONE was lazy to get out of the house. The whole plan was, i would pick him up from school, head over to his place, chill then head to Sakura for dinner, but.. like what I said, SOMEONE was very lazy. So we improvised and instead had Pizza. 2 large pizza, shared among 4 people and 1 lasagna for me. Most of the pizza went into amrit so you know whyy. :D

Spent some quality time together and challenged each other to Crazy Taxi on FB. As per normal, only the best will claim victory and it was ME! Amrit sucked at it. Now we know, he can't be a taxi driver. Anyway.. overall it was a great day. :D

title:
date: Tuesday, June 02, 2009
time:10:48 PM

Night At The Museum 2. It was hilarious. I can definitely say its much more funnier then the first one. My brothers really enjoyed it. I don't know about Amrit, but i know I did. YesYes, Mr Amritdave tagged along with me and my brothers for the movie. I guess this is the first movie with him. I guess it was okayy but Asyraf was not that comfortable at first. But overall, I had a good day.

I got another job for the infocomm convention at Singapore Expo from 16 to 19 June. I guess its better for me to get another job first while waiting for the stupid Espirit job. Its been more then a week and still nothing. I guess if its meant to be then its meant to be. But right now, IM BROKE!

I spent some quality time with Shima. As per normal, we went for a walk at J8, cause I had to get the movie tickets and she had some errands to run, then went to get her new glasses which looks better then her last one. Went to get bubble tea and she even followed my family get the monthly groceries. It was good she was there, as I needed someone to entertain the small ones. Thanks SHIMA! You know.. Spending time with Shima, reminds me of the past. Those days when it was filled with laughther and happiness. There was never a day when we had nothing to say or tell.

Those were the days when we were the most happiest. Its true. Nothing compares to those times, not even now. The older we get, the more responsibilities are entrusted upon us, and its a burden. I just have to thank Shima for still being there.

Okayy. Did you guys know that New Moon's trailer is out. Its was out yesterday after the Mtv Movie Awards. There is only one word to decribe it, "AWESOME". I'm not exactly obsessed with the show okayy. The story line just keeps you coming back for more. It stimulates the brains cells. Well, anyway, Its a great book and one last thing, JACOB BLACK IS FREAKING HOT!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1vcTr9dguM

title:
date: Monday, June 01, 2009
time:11:40 PM

To the person I love the most..

You apologised. I know you meant it. You say you feel guilty for all those things youu said but youu still meant every word. I can forgive you but I can't forget. I tried before and I know myself. I wished you could have taken those words back but lets face it, you can't. If you really meant every word, I don't want you to apologise. Its hard enough that I'm going through it alone, but to know that you still meant everything, is too much for me. I'm sorry that things turned out this way too but I can't do anything no more. I didn't mean to put you through this. You should know how dramatic my life is. You said before, you could take it, but you lied. No one can.

The day I accepted you, 4+years ago, I thought my dramatic life was over. I thought things were going to get better for me. But I was wrong. I thought I could love someone without looking back at what has happen in my past. Somehow, my past seems to repeats itself. I wanted to feel loved. I was desperate for it, and I got it from you but I'm being selfish. I don't deserve any of your love and concern cause I can't give you even half of what you have given me. You gave me everything. I know you would do anything your capable of, to keep me happy but I don't want to keep taking when I can't give you back. My father is not going to make things easy for us. You should know that. I've explained to you so many times. His different. I'm the only daughter he has, its harder to let go.

Even if he knows, its not going to get any easier. His going to be down our throats till the trust is there. I'm not complaining. Im prepared for whatever there is but are you? Are you going to be there with me, holding my hand tightly, kissing my forehead and telling me you love me? After whatever you said yesterday, are you still willing to stand by me.. Are you.. Amrit?

even if you don't have anything to say, can't you just tell me you still love me?

title:
date:
time:3:17 PM

This job thingy is really fucked up right now.

title:
date:
time:2:15 PM

I never meant to start a war.
You know, I never wanna hurt you.
Don't even know we're fighting for..
Why does love always feel like a battlefield.
Why does love always feel like..

By still hanging on with you, I'm being selfish. I never thought we would be going through this, but i was wrong. For me to still keep you with me, its just going to hurt you more. Nothing i do is going to make it better. I know you mean the best but I don't know if I know what to do now. I'm selfish for loving you this way. You just don't deserve someone like me. Someone who you don't get to be with every minute of the day.

I was thinking through the whole night about everything you said. Its hard for me to take things in but I did. That is whyy i feel that, if I keep you by my side, I'm just hurting you more. I don't want to be labeled as the "selfish bitch" but somehow I am. I just don't know what else I should do, to make you understand and just stay happy with me always.

title:
date:
time:2:14 PM

Heyy. I am finally prepared for my cousin's wedding on the 14th. I picked up my outfit yesterday after some alterations and it looks good. My aunties were enjoying theirselves too. They bought 2 new punjabi suits, and made me try bridal outfits for their own amusements. I made a rather good deal with my aunt yesterday and it was about my wedding in the future. She's paying for one of my wedding outfits. Its a pretty good deal right. I tried one of the indian wedding outfits yesterday and it was beautiful and HEAVY. The details on the outfit was so heavy. I could hardly stand nor walk.

So basically i settled one of my wedding outfits with my aunt. I know its rather early to be thinking about this stuff but it doesn't hurt to be prepared. The outfits are not cheap people! The one i tried was about $1000+. Now you know whyy I made that deal right!