you said move on (where do i go)

title:
date: Thursday, July 30, 2009
time:9:11 PM

Gerard Butler is my latest crave. Isn't he something?!

Words can't explain how hurt i am after last nights conversation.
There is no point in fighting when the person on the other line, doesn't seem to understand.
The ONE thing i hate mostly about you is, you say things as and when you want it.
I guess the things you say has a mind of its own.
Well, i guess im no where close to your standard.
I never knew that someone like you could degrade me to such an extend.
Maybe the best way is to just keep them all inside and wait for the right time to burst in your face.
Sick and tired of being the "blamed" one.

title: BANKRUPT IN AUGUST.
date: Tuesday, July 28, 2009
time:9:14 PM

MENTALLY DRAINED.
brain cells dying.

Its the second week of school and things are going very well. Its just those occasional restlessness, that keeps me distracted from assignments. I need to spent sometime with my friends this week.

I attended a classical concert yesterday, that lasted for about an hour plus. Didn't have a clue what was happening, but eventually i got the hang of it. Its for a report that is due on the third week. I have to express my feelings and thoughts about the whole thing, and after the whole concert, i still had no clue what was going on. That was how blurr i was. After the concert, amrit and the guys came to fetch me, which after, we went for dinner at MAC.

As for today, its my mother's 39th birthday. Had a small party at home, then back to our normal lifes. Nothing much to look forward too tho, besides the NDP PREVIEW that i'm attending on Saturday with my younger cousins. I have to accompany the small ones. That is all for now.

title: P.S I LOVE YOU.
date: Friday, July 24, 2009
time:10:36 PM

THE WEEKEND HAS ARRIVED.
( Nothing beats the weekends, like sleeping.)

I think most of you would agree with me that the weekend is " a girl's bestfriend". Well at least for me it is. I rather sleep and catch up on lost snoozing then spent my time online, nowadays. There is nothing that interests me, in the world wide web. Like SHIMA would say, " so boring seh..". Ooops! Just remembered about my assignments! DANG!

There is nothing fascinating about morning lectures. Its either you yawn your way through or fall asleep in the process. Its becoming a normal routine for me, to keep my eyes wide open as i escape my way through lectures without getting caught daydreaming. Lecturer's tend to notice me staring at the board so hard, that they have to ask me a question, just to get my attention. I fall victim to Q&A, and that would leave me speechless at my seat. STUPID LECTURERS!

That's all for today readers. :D

" I fall in love with an idiot.
An idiot that kisses my forehead when i arrive.
An idiot that thinks i act cute when i say something stupid
or when i ask him to repeat what he just said.
An idiot that tends to look deeply into my eyes, as he finds the right things to say.
That idiot is truly one hell of an idiot, but his not any oridinary idiot.
He's my idiot! "

title: " AS SOFT AS TOFU "
date: Thursday, July 23, 2009
time:9:38 PM

Its been 3 days of school and I have never felt so TIRED in my entire life before. My brain has been set to the busy mode lately, but thankful, its still in running condition. New classmates, new modules, new start and brand new challenges seem to excite me till today. Today I had my first morning class, and HONESTLY, it was the worst experience ever. Everything about today was awful. From the morning train ride to the afternoon sun, yawning non-stop and 3hour lecture. Nothing about my thursday sounded good. But there was a good side to my day, I had my first class lunch outing. It was weird at first but overall it was okayy, still mingling around tho'.

I went for my free haircut at TONI&GUY yesterday at Heeran, and i only got done at 10.30pm. Its was pretty late and i was super tired. Eddie (my hairdresser) seem to have some trouble at first but he came through and did a pretty good job. I was so irritated about my frizzy hair that i told him, that he could do anything or whatever he wanted with my hair, as long as its presentable, and he did! Amrit had to wait 2&half hours for me, and i felt bad. But we're good. Right amrit? :D

Assignments, Reports and Portfolio's are going to be my new "bestfriend" for the weekend. Nothing interesting comes to mind, even as i sit here and type them out. There is a bad feeling at the bottom of my stomach when i mention them too. Its starting all over again, but for sure im ready for the "shit" that comes my way. Well, i guess that is all folks. Till the next time. :D

title:
date: Tuesday, July 21, 2009
time:9:53 PM

Last night i found out that life isn't always filled with butterflies and rainbows.
Filled with tears and disappointment.
With no one but myself to blame in the end.

title:
date: Monday, July 20, 2009
time:8:54 PM

THANK YOU AMRIT for a lovely day filled with fights and plenty of love!

This is my last day of holidays. 2 months have passed and its back to work work WORK! I have this tiny awful feeling in me, for tomorrow. I hope my class is filled with good/friendly classmates like my previous class. But on the good note, IM A YEAR 2 STUDENT PEOPLE! I only have to struggle for 2 more years before moving on to maybe a full time job or maybe even, a degree. Who knows right?!

title: Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya. Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu. Tak akan terulang lagi. Semuaaa kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu.
date: Sunday, July 19, 2009
time:6:27 PM

These past 2 months, I had a lot of fun, even though i could have asked for more. I couldn't have asked for a better way to end it then to have dinner with my KCPmates. ThankYOU for the lovely / filling dinner! I really missed every single one of you! As for SHIMA, thanks for being there when i needed a partner in crime. You will always be my bubbletea-mate! HAHAHA! Don't forget to ask me out for bubbletea, even if i start school okayy? Last but definitely not least, AMRIT, thankyou for spending time with me. Bringing me around, where ever you had to go and for taking care of me. I know im a pain in the ass for most of my friends, so i apologise for those ass-paining times.

School is 2 days away, and I know i won't be able to do those things I did for my holidays then. AISYAH is back to being busy with schoolwork and stressing out over stupid things, but i guess its part of school life. Ohh yeah, DIANA, all the best your first day of school tmr! WELCOME TO THE GANG BABE!

I'll update again tmr, after i get back from amrit's place. Bye.

title:
date: Thursday, July 16, 2009
time:5:52 PM

What in the hell do you want from me?!
I do nothing, but keep you guys happy but somehow i get kicked in the ass for being the nice fellow.
I don't want any trouble.
I talk nicely but people think otherwise, then please do tell me how do you want me to treat you?!
I try with all my might to settle things but I cant.
Everyone has their own definition of fun, and I have no idea how else to make you guys understand that.
If i'm such a trouble then please stay away from me if it makes you angry talking to me.
Leave me here to suffer.
(No one will even care if im alive, so why bother right?!)

title: 8 days and counting..
date: Monday, July 13, 2009
time:8:49 PM

Sorry to my dear readers. I have been rather lazy this past few days. Have not been feeling well either. I don't know if im coming down with the flu or just school symptoms. OMG!

SCHOOLS STARTS IN 8 DAYS TIME!

I've been rather comfortable been home for the past few months, and when it comes to starting school again, only bad memories comes thru'. Early class, late night assignments, overflowing projects, annoying lecturers and high expectations. I so have to get myself back together again. OMG AISYAH! Why are you making it sound like its the end of the world, your just starting school? I know, but I know that im going to miss out on FUN, OUTINGS AND MEET-UPS. Did I mention that i have new classmates for this year too. I have to start over anew, when it comes to classmates and more new lecturers are introduced in my second year. I smell STRESS coming my way.

Im looking forward to dinner with the whole KCP group. Its been a rather long time since we went out together, giggle, gossip and mingle. I guess its the perfect way to end my holidays with, GOOD FOOD & GREAT COMPANY.

As i sit and wait.
For the day to end.
My only thought comes of you.
Your never there but still i hope.
That the love that grew will still shine thru'.

title: There's nothing special about my house.
date: Thursday, July 09, 2009
time:5:40 PM

I dance around this empty house
Tear us down, throw you out
Screaming down the halls
Spinning all around and now we fall

Pictures framing up the past
Your taunting smirk behind the glass
This museum full of ash
Once a tickle, now a rash

This used to be a Funhouse
But now it's full of evil clowns
It's time to start the countdown
I'm gonna burn it down, down, down
I'm gonna burn it down

9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, fun

Echoes knocking on locked doors
All the laughter from before
I'd rather live out on the street
Than in this haunted memory

I've called the movers, called the maids
We'll try to exorcise this place
Drag my mattress to the yard
Crumble, tumble house of cards

This used to be a Funhouse
But now it's full of evil clowns
It's time to start the countdown
I'm gonna burn it down, down, down

This used to be a Funhouse
But now it's full of evil clowns
It's time to start the countdown
I'm gonna burn it down, down, down
I'm gonna burn it down

9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, fun

I'm crawling through the doggy door
My key don't fit my life no more
I'll change the drapes, I'll break the plates
I'll find a new place, burn this fucker down

Do, do, do, do, do, do, do
Do, do, do, do, do, do, do
Do, do, do, do, do, do, do
Do, do, do, do, da, da, da, da

Do, do, do, do, do, do, do
(9, 8)
Do, do, do, do, do, do, do
(7, 6)
Do, do, do, do, do, do, do
(5, 4, 3)
Do, do, do, do, do, do, do
(2, 1)

This used to be a Funhouse
But now it's full of evil clowns
It's time to start the countdown
I'm gonna burn it down, down, down

This used to be a Funhouse
But now it's full of evil clowns
It's time to start the countdown
I'm gonna burn it down, down, down
I'm gonna burn it down

title:
date: Wednesday, July 08, 2009
time:4:13 PM

Here are some of the pictures taken on Monday. There are plenty more pictures but the rest are on Facebook. As you can see, not a lot of the guys were there and that meant that there were more pizzas for the rest of them. HAHA! Thanks AISHAH for inviting me! :D

Okayy, sidetracking abit. I got my hari raya outfit already. Its brown this year for me and my mom. Didn't plan to get it early this year

but things just led to the other. Got them at a cheap price and this year, i don't have to panic over my outfit.

Sidetracking again.. I sat in-front of my MAC laptop, chatting with 2 of my dearest/closest friends. One of them was happy over her upcoming trip while the other was stuck by sadness for the past few months. Hearing the things she say, hurts me but all i could do is, advice her to wake up and not lose herself in this battle. As her longtime friend, i really do care about her and she needs to realise that there are so many of us, rotting for her, and she should never forget that. If that person doesn't want to help you thru' your toughest times, there are plenty more of us, waiting for you to reach out. I just want her to know that I'm there for her, just like how i'm there for the rest of my friends. :D

title: SURPRISE!
date: Monday, July 06, 2009
time:11:19 PM

Firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAIRUS!

I know I have not been updating frequently, as i promised. Went to Fairus's Surprise party under Ayid's blk just now. Thank god it went as planned by Aishah. Even though there wasn't as many of the guys, as we wished, but the plan still worked. Stayed there about 1030pm, then amrit sent my home. It was a short day but i had fun. Took pictures of the guys, so i will upload them soon okayy!

Im getting my hair coloured again tomorrow but this time, its FREE! :D