you said move on (where do i go)

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date: Wednesday, October 14, 2009
time:2:51 AM

I was looking through my pictures and i stumbled across this picture, of us making a deal. I still remembered what it was about. You said you would come under my block and sound your horn a few times, as you had just fixed it. But that night, it didn't happen. I actually won that bet, but i guess you forgot. This picture speaks a million words and describes the kind of people, the 2 of us are.

We use to be fun. Fun to the point where we would joke and tease each other, and somehow, in between all those teasing and joking, we still loved each other more then ever. We promised each other we wouldn't leave, to be there through it all. To love each other no matter what, and have 3 kids in the future. We would talk at night and plan out our future, as to how our house would look like and how i must learn to cook. I enjoyed every conversation, no matter how silly they may sound, but somehow those conversations doesn't exist anymore.

I don't know why i'm crying as i'm typing this, but all i know is i miss us.

I want you to take back whatever you said but i know you won't. I want you to be here with me, as i stress out on my work. I know I'm being selfish, but i need you more now then i ever did. You don't know how hurt and torn i am right now. I want us to be at terms, i want you to be with me. I want you to love me. LOVE ME!

I don't know what to do anymore. I'm lost and scared that i might lose you. I think i'm about too...