you said move on (where do i go)

title: Still no word from you.
date: Tuesday, March 02, 2010
time:1:01 AM

2nd March 2010, 1:02am

Feeling really tired, but can't sleep just yet. Trying to complete as many things as i can tonight, so i can concentrate on my STUPID animation storyboard tomorrow. Everyone else in the house seems to be doing something much more fun then what i'm doing now. Parents, in their room watching the latest tamil movie, Asyraf is in my room, reading a book and Yusoff is fast asleep. Everyone else seems to be doing the things that i like but i can't. HAISS.

Been having trouble sleeping. Too many things going through my mind. From school to life to relationships. Everything seems to be in my mind, in one shot. The outcome of sleepless nights, would be a a grumpy and malfunctioned aisyah. I really need to settle my life issues soon, before i lose myself in it.

Have not had a proper conversation with him. Everything is so messed up for me. Tried msging him but he was doing some other things. 2 days w/o a word from him, and finally today, he called. He said that he would call back later, cause i was in a middle of a group meeting, but still no word from him yet. Tried msging him, like half an hour ago, but he was at court. So now, im not sure what is going on. I don't know what to do.

Im just upset at the fact that a few days ago, he went riding with the boys, when he is not fully recovered yet. Im just upset about that. But ever since that day, nothing seems to be the same. If you love the bike so much, then why wasnt it there, by your side when you were in hospital, babe. I support you with whatever you want or wanted to do, but for my sake, just don't get onto THAT bike, till your fully recovered. Is that too much for me to ask of you?

I just want you to know, that there are alot of people that are counting on you to do the right things in life, and that includes me. If you don't get it, then you never will..

I tried to put in some sense but nothing made sense to you.