you said move on (where do i go)

title: Down Under.
date: Thursday, April 08, 2010
time:2:01 AM

this has "me" written all over it.

08th April 2010; 2:02AM

Group work ended about less then 10 hours ago. So technically, that means 3 more important assessments, and that is excluding ISP. I can proudly say that my group did better then expected. We were confident but never knew that we would get such comments from 2 out of 3 lecturers. But nonetheless, congratulations to us! :)

Starting from next week, i'll be starting on my year end prOjects, ISP. Not quite sure what topic i should do. Thought of doing on IKEA, but thought of pushing myself a but further in terms of ideas. But we shall just see, what i REALLY decide to do, the next coming weeks.

As you guys know that i'm always up at the most ungodly hears of the night. For the first time, as i walked out of my room, heading to the kitchen to grab a bottle of water, i felt so.. unwanted. Felt as if, i was the outcast of the family. They have been having family dinner, and i'm not there. They watch tv together, and laugh at the same things, and i'm no where to be found. I come home very late nowadays, and its beginning to sink in. I know it sounds stupid, but i don't know why i would even think this way. I think i just miss spending time with my mom. Having our "girl" talks and ridiculous dance sessions. OHHH GOD! I feel like crying now. I hate it when i'm having my period. It makes a cry baby! ARGGGHH!

Ohh yeah, on my way back home just now, i walked past this couple that was having a huge argument about the guy not calling her, or spending time with her. From the looks of the guy, he was probably in he's NS period, bold and really tanned. He was speechless. He looked like he was going to breakdown. He was trying to calm her down, but she just kept on blabbering about her issues. He was lost. He was.. unsure what he had to do. In the end, she left him there, alone. And he just sat at the interchange alone, before moving off.

That situation just got me thinking about the fact that Amrit is going for he's NS soon, and i'm not sure if i'm ready. HAHAHAHA! That sentence just doesn't sound right. He is the one that is going NS, but i'm the one that is not ready. Maybe because i'm so used to seeing him everyday in primary/secondary days. Hearing from him everyday, so i guess i would definitely feel rather uneasy. But, I definitely wouldn't want to be like that girl, but somehow i can totally see myself doing or saying such things. Paranoia. Lets see if Amrit is any different from that guy. See if he does keep he's PROMISES!

if i sing you a song, would you sing along?
or wait till i'm gone, or how we push and pull.
if i give you my heart, would you just play the part.
or tell me its the start of something BE-YOU-TIFUL!