you said move on (where do i go)

title: i hate love - contradicting, i know.
date: Thursday, August 12, 2010
time:11:22 PM

if only he knew;

I have officially hate LOVE - contradicting, but who cares. I hate falling in love, being in love and being loved. Some people say, love lasts a lifetime, but it doesn't happen for everyone. Everyone goes through breakups. The time when you fall head over heels over someone, think that you're gonna marry him/her, have he/her kids and live happily every after, but you're wrong when you realize you're the only one standing at the aisle.

I'm not saying that I have been left at the aisle before, but I had my fair share of heartbreaks in my 20 years. The heartbreaks usually come from the most unexpected people in your life, parents, siblings, family members, friends and even boyfriends. So maybe that is why I have this grudge against LOVE.

I've actually had enough of being treated like a useless piece of crap. I'm sorry if this isn't what you're looking for in life, but i definitely know one thing, you're enjoying the life that you've always wanted. I mean nothing - i get it, but give me some credit at least. Now it hurts when you hear me say things - things that you never wanna hear, but it's time for me to be honest with myself. I can't keep hiding behind this so called, LOVE and hope that things will change for the better.

I love you and will always do, but I aren't gonna bother you with nonsensical crap in my life anymore. SORRY.