you said move on (where do i go)

title: the world's most irritating dad.
date: Monday, August 30, 2010
time:2:17 AM

"the greatest gift in honor is having you for a daughter."

Found this picture from Mulan, that reminded me of my relationship with my dad. This movie demonstrated how my dad and i were, towards each other. He is a over-protected father who wants the best for his daughter, but i wanna live my life the way i want.

We didn't really got along, most of my growing up years - but now, i can say that we're trying to work towards something. I grow up making plenty of mistakes, and my father was there to clear the shit i got myself into. And when i was in my teenage years, i did everything in my power to make it right. And why i had to do this, was because my father lost his trust w me. I would lie about almost everything - and it came to the point where everything i was saying was a lie, to him.

And ever since that point in my life, i tried my best to make it up to him, even till now. But my father forgot that i'm a growing adult, who will have to leave the house soon & fall in love. The point in his life, where he has to stop holding on to me. I think he forgot that his daughter is now a woman.

I don't blame him for seeing me in that way. My behavior doesn't really help in a way, whenever i'm at home. But that doesn't change the fact that I'll have to go one day.

The reason for this post is for the kiss to the forehead that my dad gave me just now. For e encouragement he gives me, whenever he senses my discomfort in life. No matter how many times we scream at each other - to the point where we wanna kill each other, i still love him in the end.

i love my football crazy daddy!