you said move on (where do i go)

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date: Thursday, February 16, 2006
time:4:14 PM

Happy Valentines Day To Everyone! :)

Valentines Day is suppose to be a day when both parties spent time togather without anyone there to disturb them. But not for me. I spent my valentimes playing netball wif my gals. It did not really matter to me bcox almost every year it is the same to me. I don ever get to spent it wif amrit. Sometimes i wonder. Is it bcox i don wan to be hurt again like the last time or is it bcox i jus don wan to spent time at all. I can neve make up my mind! I hate being alone on valentines day. The one reason is bcox it is VALENTINES DAY!! The other reason is bcox i don like to remember the past. I rememeber the times when i use to spent wif farhan and the times he use to push me around. I rememeber the times when i was his pouching bag and the times he would scold me without any reason. The times he use to make me look like a fool and the times he jus don care! He neve did love me bcox if he did, he wont do the things he did to me. The times i cried by myself and the times i jus felt like dying. The times when i weak and i always needed someone to pick me up. I was shattered into pieces and i felt like a broken mirror. Nobody dared to pick me up bcox they were afraid to be cursed for the next 7 years! I always thought tt there wont be anyone for me. I jus wanted to be left alone! My hopes and dreams were destroyed and now i don have any. But everything changed. I found for myself a brave and strong "prince". haha! I hope nothing would go wrong wif this one. I already have hopes and dreams for this relationship and i don want to destroy it. Bcox i knw he wont! :) Hmmm.. Anyway i was updating my blog and at the same time i am chatting wif shalih. It has been a long time since i talked to him and saw him. I think he will be visiting my blog later. SO...

Take Care Shalih! :)