you said move on (where do i go)

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date: Saturday, December 30, 2006
time:7:14 PM

I'm back again. The total nutcase! Back with the same problem as usual. We have not spoken for 2 days already and i guess he is fine with it. I was told that he lost his phone. So now i have to contact him thru' his hse phone. I don knw why but he should knw that he is neve at home & how in the hell am i suppose to call him! Is he going to carry his hse phone with him always. Hais. I'm so stressed! Thinking of ways to get over the fight and ways to just relax. My relationship is not perfect, I KNOW! But why do ppl say that i am the luckiest gal ever to have a relationship that is goin so well for me. But in thru fact! We do fight! And it can be NASTY! Words flying all over the place! Trying not hurt the other party's feeling is hard but i try too. But sometimes things don turn out the way it is suppose too.Hais. I guess i just have to live with it. Even though i MISS HIM DEARLY, he will neve get to knw. I just hope he is fine & his not doing anything stupid! And he better get himself a NEW PHONE FAST!! Today IRFAN(my baby cousin) bought his first pair of shoes. He was so excited. His mom bought for him a new sandal from Riders and a PUMA shoe. Not bad for a 10 month baby. He has a puma shoe. It was a really cute shoe. Black with the puma sign at the side. He'll wear it for hari raya haji tml and he will be the talk of the whole town! Cool kid with a cool ATTITUDE! HAHA! Anyway, 2morrow is Hari Raya Haji. Lots of things are ready and i cant wait. Even though we don really do much on this day but we still get to meet my big family. I miss them. I hope they miss me! haha! There will be food, food and more food for everyone. But the person that i miss the most is definitely my Grandfather! He was the reason why hari raya haji was so fun. Without him here, its just not the same. Hais. You just do anything to bring him home or even back to earth. All i knw is that he is up there watching upon us. I hope he is happy. :)