you said move on (where do i go)

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date: Tuesday, February 26, 2008
time:2:25 AM

I've been missing for sometime. Sorry about that. there has been alot of things happening in my life. first it was my school-less problem. secondly, i failed my first ever driving test. i just dont know wat went wrong. i went thru the questions twice and still i failed. so i guess, i have to re-take the test this friday. but the thing that has been on my mind every single time, my grandma got admitted into hospital. she was complaining about stomach pains. my aunty called for the ambulance and she got admitted. the next day she had to go thru an operational. that was the first time i actually waited in the hospital for someone to come out of the operation room. the wait was so unbearable.

i waited outside for about 5hrs. just waiting for the doctor to explain was so horrible. the doctor was talking doctor language that was so worried. but thank god, my grandma is ok. when she was taken out of the operation room, with so many tubes coming out of her mouth and nose, my heart just fell apart. the look on her face with those things coming out. it was so devastating for me. i waited for her to wake up in the icu. i couldn't sleep so i decided to stay there for sometime. i waited till she woke up. i just sat there beside her, holding her hand and just praying for her to wake up.

she did wake up. i was trying to control my tears. i asked her questions but she could not answer me. she could open her mouth but nothing is coming out. the tubes in her mouth was making it hard for her to talk. she became frustrated cos we could not understand her. my whole family is just hoping for her to get well, just like the last time.