you said move on (where do i go)

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date: Sunday, July 20, 2008
time:6:44 PM

Ever since we graduated, nothing has been the same anymore. Life, love, school, friends and even family. i'm not sure if i've changed but if i do, i hope its for the best. a new year means a new beginning. i didnt expect it to be that hard. i thought leaving the comforts of sec school would be something that i needed but somethings really change drastic-ly.

LOVE...

Hmmmm.. if you were to ask me, how me and amrit would be after grad day, i would say... WE WILL BE GREAT!!!

but i guess.. that wasnt going to be easy. trying to continue OUR love far away from each other. we use to meet each other every single day till i cant stand his face sometimes but now.. i would die just to see him for a minute. the love is strong but time doesn't let us be together.

there were times when i thought it was going to be over. times when we just dont know wat to do anymore and times i would just wan to kill him. and we bear-ly made it alive. i know i put him thru alot of pain this year but i cant do anything to make things better. i'm just thankful that nothing bad happened and that, i can wake uo everyday thinking that his always going to be there for me, no matter wat. loving me and caring for me till the day i die.

i do love you amrit... but sometimes, u do get on my nerves. i cant wait to live my whole life with you and spent the bad and good times with you.

LIFE...

well... i have gone thru hell this past few months trying to get my fat ass into a school. always regretting the things i've done during school, like not being able to pass with flying colours. that regret will always be in my heart. if i only paid more attention than i would'nt be so stressed.

but...

i did get my school and i'm starting tml. one part of me is exciting while the other is just scared and lazy. starting school means making new friends and new teachers. i have to start from stage one AGAIN!

as for my personal life.. abit better.. i guess my dad kind of understand that im not going to be home much and his really letting me go slowly. i'll take that. as long as he doens't treat me like his little girl anymore.

FRIENDS....

HMMM.... my friends... they are fine. but i really do pity some of them. some of them are going thru a tough time and the only thing i can do is be there for them. i know they are strong enough to handle their probs but sometimes even they need a helping hand. i really miss them to death and i cant wait to meet them again. most probably for shima&kasmi's birthday.

i do miss you guys...

HAPPY ANNI DEE&AHTANK! 21/07/08