you said move on (where do i go)

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date: Friday, September 26, 2008
time:5:10 PM

am i crazy or falling in love, or is it another crush?

had a bad day yesterday. talked to whoever tt called me and everyone told me the same thing. why put myself in misery when i have so many people around me tt love me as much as her? why.. i keep asking myself this question last night but nothing seems to make sense. its easier said then done to forget abt a friendship tt was 12 years long. its not easy. we were practically family or could even be a relationship but she doesnt seem to think tt way.

shima asked me a good question just now. "why am i so up tight abt this?". and my reply was "i don knw". trying hard to move on. trying very hard.

met amrit for a while just now. followed him to marina sq since he was suppose to report there for the F1 thingy. we just kept walking around, went into every adidas shop to see what's new but saw nothing tt was appealing. then we walked into the nike shop and saw the shoe that i wanted. its not the same colour but this model. i was joking with him before we went into the shop tt i wanted to buy the whole shop cause its NIKE! but i don't know from where, he said yes that he will buy for me the shoe, with his cheeky smile. haha. so he bought it for me! love him. the shoe costed $95. cute right?

nice right. its just for school. thanks amrit! love you!

as for my friends that were there for me. thank you. thank you for being there when there wasn't anyone left for me. and for my bf. sorry i vented my anger on you. i take things to seriously and i know its hard for you to understand how i feel abt this friendship dilemma but you never fail to try. thanks. shima, thanks for letting me vent my anger on you. thank you. i owe u an outing soon. as for the rest... jalan raya is still happening (i hope). miss u guys. :)

you had the choice to choose between friendship or relationship.

but you choose neither.