you said move on (where do i go)

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date: Friday, October 24, 2008
time:10:36 PM

to deep to feel the pain.

in his room waiting for him to get out of the shower.

"prince" of the house was having his mandi bunga.

i was bored so used his phone to take pictures.

took more then just this but deleted cause too ..... :)

i had a blast today. spent most of the day at amrit's place. i think that was the only place where i could really be myself. no problems. no lecturers. no family. all i had was him. we were watching step brothers but couldnt really concentrate cause he was always disturbing and interupting me. hated him for that. but overall, i had fun irritating him. he called me an "irrit". poor me.

i love the feeling from disturbing him. i can do whatever i wan and still he wont do anything. he was thinking of punching me but he loves me too much. i left the house without saying a word cause i didnt wan to disturb him anymore but he thought i was mad. crazy boy. but i LOVE him.

went home today, to an empty house. i was wishing for this for a long time and finally my wish came true. but it was too quiet for me after awhile. i just want my family to be the same old LATIFF'S. but somethings are just meant to be in the past. for dinner, i spent it at swenson with my mom, yusoff, irfan and my aunty. she was nice enough to belanja us. we ate like there was no tmr and it felt good to be able to sit and talk like those days.

i try to hide my pain deep down.

in a place that is far from reality and hopes.

darkness fills and all i feel is numbness.

nothing feels right nor does it feel the same anymore.

fears run through my head like a bullet train.

i'm losing grip.

whats happening?

i strayed from myself and this is how i really feel.